i went to school at 10am for for sc4206 lecture, knowing that i'll be getting back my termpaper today. i wasn't really expecting much, coz i knew i didn't really did a good job and i kinda prep-talked myself into not expecting too much.
i swear it was the way the prof made it sound as if everyone did a great job for the paper that got my hopes a little higher a getting a better grade, but it really sucked looking at the grade that i got. and the main reason why it sucked so much was that there were so many people getting As, be it A-, A or A+. i wouldn't have mind getting a B, if it wasn't apparent that so many people were getting As. the damn bell curve is gonna be skewing towards the A so much, it means that i'm gonna have a sucky grade for this module. and the finals is only 30% for this module, so my fate is more or less sealed.
i'm really disappointed with the grade.
so much that i came home to sulk after the lesson ended instead of sticking with my original plan of staying in the lib to mug.
i have totally lost the mood to do so today, even though i know that time is running out for preparation for finals.
the most sucky part of the getting back the term paper today is knowing that i'm gonna do even worse for the sc3203 paper. it is the paper that i was least satisfied with, and if i have already gotten a B for sc4206, sc3203 is going down the drains.
rah. i'm really upset about the term paper. i got home telling my parents about my paper, and i could feel the tears welling up in my eyes. luckily there is my baby niece to carry and hug for some form of comforting.
i'm gonna continue wallowing in self-pity and sulk for a while. hopefully i'll get started on doing my readings in the later part of the day.
to lyd: thanks for returning my call and your concern! haha, i doubt you can beat my prof up, and i sorta deserved it since i know i didn't do a good job for the paper myself. i'll be good after a while.
idon'thavethestrengthforhappythoughts.
